Short biography
It’s more years than I like to admit that I decided to
give it all up. That is my male body and my male cloth. At the time I had
reached just about everything you can wish for in live. I had a good-looking wife, 3 beautiful
children, a house, a business and a profession. After many years of struggling,
I was just about to sell my business and gain financial independence. Then it
all happened. I met this beautiful woman, in my eyes a
goddess. I fell in love
and we had an affair. She was so understanding, so compassionate.
I felt that
this was the first person to tell the secret I had carried for so many years in
my heart. The secret of dressing as a woman, of wanting to be a woman. I told
her and everything changed.
She really was compassionate, she really was
understanding and told me, it made no difference to her. She said she loved me
for the person I was and not how I looked. She gave me so much courage to go
forth with my endeavor to be a woman, that I made the biggest mistake of my
life. I thought others would be just as understanding and in a weak moment I
told my wife.
To make a long story short. My wife left me and took our children along. I cried for days and weeks. A nasty divorce followed (which itself would be material for a book). I was humiliated, devastated and didn’t know in or out. That’s when I decided that what had been basically a part time passion, dressing as a woman and occasionally going out as a woman, was for the birds. I had nothing to loose anymore, and I might as well live full-time as a woman.
Now I live full-time as a woman. Like I said more years than I like to admit. And as Frank Sinatra sings: ”I did it my way” I started a new career as an artist, a sculptress. Ten years ago as a jewelry designer with my own line of gold jewelry. Most people do not know about my past and have accepted me as a full-fledged woman. I think I reached the ultimate goal any TV is dreaming of: “To be totally passable” I play tennis in the women’s section of my tennis club, I'm active in my comunity, I travel around the world as a woman and if one writes about me in the newspapers it is not because of my male past and transformation, but because of my artistic work or my personality.
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This is what I’m proudest of. To have reached a public
acceptance of my work and my person WITHOUT MY PAST, and without SRS. I don’t
believe in this operation. (Except enhancing your bosom or your face). I like
sex and can’t believe that castration would make me a happier or better woman.
I also don’t believe, that what is between your legs, is decisive how good you
look as woman, or how good you feel as a woman.
If there is a major reason why I have been coming
out into the public with my story and
pictures, it is because I would like to show that there is an alternative to SRS, that there is a third way. It is a topic I recently lectured on and one
which I’m sure I will talk or write about, some more.
There is so much more to say about all the up and downs of my life. The struggles, the disappointments, the victories, successes and today’s happiness. Unfortunately my time is limited. I sure hope I will be able to add to this page as time goes by. In the meantime to all my friends: May all your dreams come true, may you find peace and fulfillment, as it happened to me.
P.S. For those of you who need statistics: I am past my 40th birthday. I'm 5 feet 6 inches tall (without heels), weigh 130 pounds, blonde hair, blue eyes, 26 waist, 38D bust. Shoe size 39, cloth 9 or 11. I love sexy cloth, high heels, satin and lacy underwear, corsets and I'm crazy about silk scarves (What else is new ?). I play tennis and ski. I love to travel, to cook and eat gourmet food, dancing, music, the theater. I like to act and sing. But most of all I like interesting people and good conversations. I'm vitally interested in politics and anything that makes this world a better and more tolerant place to live in. I live in Zurich Switzerland.
Satisfied ?
The following is an article about me and my life as an artist. It was published some years back in a german fashion magazin. This is the english translation.
The german version is at the bottom
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"Exceptional..., Monumental..., Beautiful...,sensational... Sublime forms..." In such overwhelming flowery words, characterizes Kurt Schaer, well known art critique and gallery owner the "forming sensitive art" of Jacqueline U. Art full of feeling. Curious to find out who stands behind these superlatives, I invited her for a drink at the "Ermitage Inn. At first sight Jacqueline U. gives the impression of a mixture, between a lovable dear Firehead and Calamity Jane. There is no doubt, she enjoys her masquerade and creates quite a stir. But if anybody might draw a logical conclusion to the person she is, by the way she dresses; it is totally wrong ÿ her exceptional deep blue eyes reveal intelligence and sensibility. "she has eyes as blue as the ocean and beyond....", Sings H.Van Veen, Amsterdam’s most famous chansonier. She has the radiance of a star, yet is devoid of any negative manner associated with artists. This conduct is foreign to her and contrary to the way she perceives herself. All that, you just feel when you talk with her. When she speaks of her past, when she so eloquently expresses her likes and dislikes - all in a voice reminiscent of Marlene Dietrich or Lady de Winter. Jacqueline U. was born and raised in Zurich Switzerland. She spent close to ten years in the United States. She studied art in New-York and Los Angeles, and worked successfully as an industrial designer. She talks about her life, her beliefs and observations like leaves falling from a tree. But she continues to return to one topic - her work. You can sense and feel her desire, to seize the opportunity to share her art with others is far more important to her than the mere trivia of her past. As you view Jacqueline U.’s art ,you realize, it is a gentle art. It is an art which leads the observer into the U. world of thinking and feeling - a successful world that expresses strength and inspiration. Jacqueline sees herself as the captain of her inner feelings. The discovery of herself, lets her pursue the full potential of her fantasies and feelings in a creative manner. In her art she expresses what she believes and feels at that particular moment: tenderness and cosmic harmony. She wants to show and give courage to others. The courage to break the yolk of treadmills, brutality, and "non tenderness". Ÿou can't help but being taken by her honest charming, and refreshing character. A disarming game between intelligence and rational. She has an openness which is that of a tall, trusting child. And that, is what I like about her. She is not a reasonable one, not an adjusted one. She is a personality. A person which moves between feelings and intellect, between daydreams and reality. Later at her studio and workshop she shows me some of her work. I marvel at the slender moving figures and think admiringly of a female Giacometti. Germain Busset - Zurich "Aussergewöhnlich ..... gewaltig schön, sinnliche, sublime Formen ......“so überschwenglich beschreibt Kurt Schär, bekannter Galerist aus Neukirch-Egnach die "formende Art" Jacqueline's, sich mit Gefühlen auseinanderzusetzen.Neugierig auf die Person, die hinter all diesen Superlativen steckt, habe ich Sie zu einer Apero-Stunde ins "Ermitage" am Zürichsee gebeten. Auf den ersten Blick wirkt Jacqueline wie eine Mischung aus liebenswertem Feuerkopf und Calamity Jane. Die Verkleidung macht ihr Spass, da ist kein Irrtum möglich. Sie erregt beträchtliches Aufsehen. Doch wenn man glaubt, aus ihrem Habitus logische Konsequenzen ziehen zu können, irrt man sich gewaltig.Intelligenz und Sensibilität verraten ihre ungewöhnlich grossen, ungewöhnlich blauen Augen. "Sie hat Augen mit Blick auf das Meer….“ wie H. van Veen es so treffend besingt. Jede Künstlereitelkeit ist ihr fremd, widerspricht zutiefst ihrem Wesen. Dies alles spürt man, wenn sie über ihr Leben berichtet, sich verbal austobt - im Tonfall einer Lady de Winter. Jacqueline, die in Zürich aufgewachsen, verbrachte Über zwei Jahrzehnte in den Staaten. In Los Angeles und San Francisco studierte sie Kunst und war nebenbei 'erfolgreich als Industrie Designerin tätig. Sie streut Erkenntnisse und Betrachtungen aus ihrem Leben wie Blütenblätter um sich her. Kommt jedoch immer wieder auf ihre Arbeit zu sprechen, gibt zu erkennen, dass ihr dies wichtiger ist, als all die buntscheckigen Geschichten ihrer Vergangenheit. Mit ihrem burschikosen Charme setzt sie ihre Ablenkungsmanöver problemlos durch. "Es ist eine zärtliche Kunst, die Jacqueline dem Betrachter vor Augen führt, eine Kunst, in welcher der Beschauer Einblick in die Gedankenwelt von Jacqueline erhält. Eine von Erfolg geprägte Gedankenwelt, die immer wieder Kraft und Inspiration zu neuem Schaffen verleiht." (Einem Bildbericht der "Thurgauer Zeitung" entnommen.) Jacqueline sieht sich sozusagen als Kartograph ihrer inneren Erdteile. Sich selbst auf die Spur gekommen, geht sie mit ihrem persönlichen Potential, ihrer Phantasie, ihren Gefühlen kreativ um. Mit ihren Skulpturen drückt sie aus, was sie gerade empfindet: Zärtlichkeit und kosmische Harmonie. Sie möchte etwas zeigen, das andere ermutigen sollte, ebenfalls aus dieser höllischen Maschinerie der Phantasielosigkeit und Un-Zärtlichkeit auszubrechen. Ihre charakterlichen Accessoires nehmen einen sehr für sie ein. Was für ein entwaffnendes Nebeneinander von Intelligenz und Rationalität. Sie besitzt die Offenheit eines grossen, vertrauenden Kindes. Das mag ich an ihr. Sie ist keine 'Vernünftige, keine Angepasste. Eine Persönlichkeit, die zwischen Gefühl und Intellekt, zwischen Tagtraum und Realität pendelt. Jacqueline beschreibt, dass ihre Arbeit ein Versuch ist, sich mit der Umwelt kritisch auseinanderzusetzen. "Ich möchte beim Betrachter ein Gefühl, eine Emotion auslösen. Ich will dem Beschauer keine Rätsel aufgeben. ich möchte ihn vom ersten Moment an in meine Gedankenwelt einbeziehen. Manchmal gelingt es, manchmal nicht. Der Erfolg gibt mir die Kraft und Inspiration zu neuem Schaffen, der Misserfolg die Motivation und Energie, es noch einmal und noch einmal zu versuchen."
Germaine Busset
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urning topic; the female body, love, humanity, understanding and tolerance. The following is an an article published a few years ago in a fashion magazin